Being a mom means giving of myself every minute of every day, and it isn’t easy, and rarely glamorous. But it’s worth it. Not just because being a mom is amazing in itself, but because God takes any service we do when done for Him and makes it Kingdom work. The seeds we sow, the small deaths we die to self, He causes to grow up into works for His glory. This is motherhood in a nutshell to me.
On days I dream of the next phase, when I’ll get to more fully pursue passions He’s written on my heart, He loves to gently remind me of the simple call to follow Him today, without trying to tell God how I think my life would best be used for Him. The more I try to preserve my life, the more I’ll loose it. The more I give it away, the more I’ll find life in Him. And this goes for my kids lives too, they aren’t mine, they’re His.
With all the fear raging in our world today, God is stirring my heart to love more boldly, even in the face of danger, because His perfect love casts out fear. Instead of being motivated and even crippled by fear as a mom, because it seems I’m surrounded by us and then mentalities in the interactions and facebooks wars around me, I want to instead be propelled by love. I want to welcome and rejoice over new opportunities to love others and share Jesus with people around me, inviting my kids into that too, instead of clinging to the urge to protect my kids, rejecting opportunities to step out of my neatly arranged comfort zone.
It’s easy to come up with how we think our Christian lives and especially what our kids lives should look like, but Jesus asks us to give away our lives instead of protect them. I wonder what parenting with this sort of lens would look like, one where we actually take Jesus at His word. For what good is it for a Christian mommy to gain the whole world, even with good intentions, yet forfeit her soul?
“Then Jesus said to his disciples,
“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?” Matt 16:24-26